I don’t know why I’m telling you this…

20Nov/1010

I don’t know why I’m telling you this…

... but it explains why I haven't been posting regularly this week. I'm still on chapter 2 of Decision Points. Here are my excuses:

1. My son dug his noggin into my tailbone for 16 hours during his birth. I've had lower back problems ever since. About a week and a half ago I was making my kids breakfast before I was caffeinated. I was surprised by a loaf of bread covered in mold, and I threw up. I threw my back out throwing up, and this wasn't the first time. When this happens my left hip swells up, and you can see that my hips are crooked even with my clothes on. It's not a sore back, it's a laying on the floor and can't even roll over without assistance back. It hurts. WAH!!!! The only things that help are multiple trips to the chiropractor, ibuprofen and ice. I'm also trying a pain ointment made from cobra venom I learned about from Treacher. Anyhoops, this is the first day I'm remotely productive.

2. We've finally made the decision to medicate our autistic son. It's one thing when his autistic behaviors that inconvenience us, but it's causing him distress now. I think it's the right decision, but I'm sad that my little boy has to take an anti-psychotic drug. It is what it is.

3. The other night Mr. KT mentioned applying for different positions within the occupation he's in, some of which would require moving back to our hometown. I wanted to shoot him, but the next day I started thinking past the pain in the ass of relocating again, and started thinking about what it would be like to be closer to the support system we have within our own family. You know that thing about how God will never give you more than you can handle? Been second-guessing that a lot lately. I keep thinking I just need a little more help beyond kind words and prayers. If we moved home we'd have that. And my mother is still really independent, but she won't be forever. If we were closer that burden wouldn't fall solely on my sister and her family. We're even considering buying a house across the street from my mother. It would be like a Killtruck Kompound.

So we're applying for a compassionate transfer, which puts us at the mercy of two government officials we don't know. We should know by February 1st at the latest. If it's yes, great. If it's no, then God must want us to stay here for some reason that is way beyond me right now. We would appreciate prayers.

The move would also make it possible for me to travel to those weekend getaways where bloggers livetweet getting plastered I mean conservative activism seminars.

Kill Truck

KillTruck is a wife, mother, blogger and native midwesterner now living in Eastern Washington state. She writes about politics, pop culture, parenting, wifing and a few other subjects she has no authority to write about. She has macabre fascinations with prostitution and/or cannibalism. In her free time she enjoys eating and/or drinking her feelings, liveblogging Lifetime movies, thinking about Scott Brown and mocking things she doesn’t understand.

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JamesonLewis3rd
November 20th, 2010 - 14:33

God Bless You and Yours
Jeremiah 29:11

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Darcy
November 20th, 2010 - 14:34

Ohhh. I’m si sorry to hear about the back. As you probably know…I’m familiar with the pain. I hope you’re better soon. I don’t know if it will help you or not, but what is helping me is core strengthening. I couldn’t do it while in terrible pain, though. But I can already tell I’m supporting my back better with it. Anyway, best wishes on that.

*hugs* about the decision to medicate. I know you struggled with that, and if you think it’s right, it is right.

Also: hoping for that transfer! Would love to hear some livetweeting from you at some of these blogging gatherings!

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dicentra
November 20th, 2010 - 14:36

“You know that thing about how God will never give you more than you can handle?”

First, define “handle.” No one ever does.

Second, if that saying derives from 1 Corinthians 10:13, then it’s way, waaay off the original meaning.

13 There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.

Which means that God always provides an escape hatch before you get in too far over your head with temptation to sin (provided you have the good sense to jump through the escape hatch; otherwise, into sin you fall, and then you must repent your way out).

Third, oh yes God will allow you to be taken right up to and past your breaking point. Because even if you are broken into a thousand pieces, He knows that in the end, all tears will be dried and all wounds healed.

Just not in this life. Just not where we can see.

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Darcy
November 20th, 2010 - 14:40

Not “si” sorry, of course. Gah. Typo amnesty, please.

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killtruck
November 20th, 2010 - 15:13

Thanks, everyone.

Dicentral,

Handle means survive, and that wasn’t really the point.

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Bob Reed
November 20th, 2010 - 15:18

Jen, I hope you feel better real soon. It stinks to have back problems, but especially when something like getting sick leads to throwing your back out. If Treachers snake-oil doesn’t work, maybe a few stiff drinks will!

And I hope you all get to move back home; across the street from your Mom sounds like it would be great for everyone. I have the benefit of being only 5 or 6 hours by car from my parents home, my brother lives in the same town and can help them out, and have my MIL with my wife and I; so everyone is covered.

I’ll keep y’all in my prayers, both for your speedy recovery as well as seeing the sweet pastures of home, on a regular basis, real soon.

My Regards

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Dan Collins
November 20th, 2010 - 17:06

I’ve caught glimpses of bits and pieces of this, but put it all together, and it’s a lot. I understand that hatred of moving, too.

I’m with those who say that medicating him is the right thing to do, for him. That free-floating anxiety will eat him up.

Thoughts and prayers may not be enough, but we’re going to keep you in them, regardless.

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Dede
November 20th, 2010 - 18:10

Jen you know that I have a special place in my heart for Jack. I’m sorry about you having to medicate him…I know that was a tough decision for you.

As for the god thing..you know where I stand on that so I’ll leave that there.

You are always in my thoughts as is your family.

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meep
November 21st, 2010 - 14:50

Don’t know if we’ll have to medicate our boy — seems okay so far, but he had a freakout at 4am. Doesn’t help that everybody in my family has some sort of history of sleep disturbances (except S so far. But she’s young yet. I didn’t get into my sleepwalk/sleeptalking full swing til I was 6)

Best wishes…

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SarahW
December 6th, 2010 - 19:14

KT – Request, granted.

ps. If Meep is going to keep startling me like that, I am going to have to look into a larger insurance policy.

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